I'm afraid of being alone,

...i'm afraid of being forgotten


Jeg faller, men reiser meg igjen.
Sjanglende, haltende, stumpende, fallende.

Is there anyone to heal my wound?
If i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
I'm really scared of love and people
I'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten
Always a loner, I close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, I live like a fool
I close my eyes and cover my ears
I lock myself in the gloomy darkness
365 days, all year long, I wander
Jack Sparrow holds the rudder, chasing my spirit
The raging hurricane, tightening my belt
A rapper who forfeited his orientation and lost his way
I fight again with the other me who's hiding inside me
When she left, she told me
“Even when you're next to me, it's like you're not there"
A blade-like love that brushes off when you touch it
It was a cold love where my heart froze over
Yeah, living for one minute, one second is not living
Everyday, I fear every day
m'aidez! Someone, pull me out
Always a loner, I close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, I live like a fool
I close my eyes and cover my ears
I lock myself in the gloomy darkness
When I faced our farewell that came without warning,
afraid that i'd be alone again, I ignored it
The past times that I yearn for even in my dreams
Hoping for those times to return to me, with an earnest heart
I prayed every night
The arrow of memories that pulled the bowstring and left my hand
it flies endlessly towards the far target
I'm asking you to come back to me, to hold onto my hand
No matter how many times I call you, though I endlessly shout for you
there's no response from you
In my memories, no matter how much I struggle to erase your existence
Every night, in my dreams,
She appears, wiping away my falling tears
What should I do? Say that everything is ok?
Lie to myself? I can't take this anymore!
When it hurts, I hurt too. When it's sad, I'm sad too
My frozen heart keeps accusing me
Really, it's the end. Really, I'm okay.
The tears that I've held in keeps pouring down on me
Is there anyone to heal my wound?
If i leave it alone, it's going to continually get worse
I'm really scared of love and people
I'm afraid of being alone, i'm afraid of being forgotten
Always a loner, I close the door to my heart
bearing my sadness on my back, I live like a fool
I close my eyes and cover my ears
I lock myself in the gloomy darkness
Hvorfor må jeg prøve skjebnen igjen og igjen?
Hvorfor må jeg glemme smerten når såret gror?
Hvorfor må jeg venne meg til en ødelagt kropp?
Hvorfor må jeg glemme hvor jeg falt sist?
Hvorfor må jeg glemme? Hvorfor må jeg glemme?
Hvorfor må jeg kjenne den gamle smerten igjen (og igjen og igjen...)?

En gang, denne gang, går det ikke å reise seg igjen.
Jeg forblir der, i den våte mosen, alene og døende.
Det går ikke å reise seg igjen, og jeg vil det ikke heller.
Månen speiler seg i vannoverflaten og blinker til meg.


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Postat av: [lisabjernhagen]

sv: det får du se :D hehehe <3

2011-08-27 @ 13:24:28
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Postat av: [lisabjernhagen]

sv: haha, jo jag menar det :D



jo jag vet det om lavey-satanister! men fortfarande tror ju många satanister på satan, och det hör ju liksom till grundidén med hela religionen. så är så jag menar :) vore ju som att det påhittades någon inriktning i kristendomen där man inte tror på gud utan bara har en livsåskådning. du förstår hur jag menar? det synsättet verkar väl helt okej, men hör ju trots allt till satanismen som grundreligion som jag tycker i lag åtminstone inte passar mig.



ah okej :D haha! <3<3

2011-08-27 @ 18:36:27
URL: http://lisabjernhagen.com

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